Sunday, March 13, 2011

52 Sundays ago...

...our lives were changed forever.
...our hearts grew in capacity, and were filled with more love than we thought imaginable.
...I experienced, and Adam witnessed, the miracle of our son being born.

Brooks' first birthday is tomorrow...but it was on a Sunday night that our little boy joined our family, and today my heart has been filled to the brim with gratitude. I have a tender experience that I haven't recorded, and I think today is the perfect day to do so.

I can remember waking up in the middle of the night, laying in my hospital bed after having Brooks, crying...a nurse happened to come in moments later to check some of my vitals, and asked if I was okay. I said, "I've never been more okay,"and that I was thinking about what I had experienced just hours earlier...giving birth. I laughed a little bit through some tears and even said the words, "It was so good." I told the nurse how anxious I had been for giving birth the previous few months leading up to his due date, and then asked the nurse if she was religious, and if she'd be comfortable if I shared with her some tender feelings. She said yes and absolutely. She was so sweet to listen to me. I told her that I woke up with this amazing feeling of love for my brand new son. I told her that I do not know exactly when the spirit enters the body, but that I kind of hoped that my boy was able to spend a little time with his Heavenly Father right before being born...maybe to get some ultimate Fatherly advise and enjoy some sweet Heavenly embraces. And that if that was the case, I had a very humbling feeling that he could have asked Heavenly Father, in a child-like innocent way, "Can you be nice to my mom and make sure everything goes okay?" Tears once again fall from my cheeks as I recall that feeling. I truly feel I had guardian angels helping me during his birth...because I could not have done it by myself. Brooks was in a hurry to get here, and he did so with grace. (you can read Brooks' full birth story here)

52 Sundays ago, Adam and I witnessed Heaven touch Earth when our sweet boy Brooks was born.

15 comments:

Bri!!! said...

Such a sweet experience and I know those tears. I was shocked at the love I felt once I became a mother which I talked about in my letter to Caleb below.

http://brihoopes.blogspot.com/2008/07/calebs-first-love-letter.html

I feel like our babies spirits can go back and forth while they are in the womb. I love thinking about how they must receive the ultimate fatherly advice/love before they finally come to us. There really is nothing like a new spirit that just came from our Father in Heaven. Loved reading this post, and I'm now off to read your full birth story!

Bri!!! said...

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jordan said...

I'll admit, when we first started being bloggy friends I went back and read some previous entries. It's a thing I do so I can learn a little about the person to be able to relate to them more (does that sound odd? Haha). Anyway, I remember reading your birth story and now reading this I just find it beautiful. I love the stories you share about your son and I think it's great you do such a fantastic job of recording your thoughts and feelings because he'll be able to re-read this and he'll be so moved by it when he's older. You're such a great mommy, and again, while I'm being honest, there are so many things about you being a mother that I admire and I hope to acquire some of your qualities when the time comes for me.

Hope you are having a wonderful Sunday evening!

The Kimballs said...

What a beautiful account Haley! Brooks knew what he was in for coming to Adam and you. That's why he was so anxious! What an angel boy! Happy Birthday Brooks!

Marlene Fredricks said...

Reading your account caused me to recall my first night as a Mother. My nurse came in and found me crying too, but in my case it was because her Daddy was in Vietnam. The nurse was so sweet and gave me a wonderful back massage.

So in addition to your sharing your story, thank you for for causing me to reflect on a sweet and tender moment in my life. You're a sweetheart and an inspiration.

b. lee said...

awww Happy-HAPPY Birthday to your handsome little man :D love the sweet sweet "welcome to the world" bambino snap-shot!

Chelsea said...

that picture is AMAZING!

XOXOXO

love love love your words. you are SUCH A SWEEET mamma!

Katie Marie said...

I love how you put a child being born-heaven touching earth. That is so true. He is a beautiful baby!

Carolee Beckham said...

<3

Eva Marie said...

Happy Birthday sweet sweet Boy! Your mama and dada love you completely and Im just glad to follow along on the ride

Alli said...

How amazing! As I'm posting on Sunday I want to wish Brooks a very happy birthday! That's so beautiful and I thank you for sharing. Although it's still a long ways in the distance for me, I sometimes get nervous about thinking about childbirth. I'm not good with "body stuff" and I'm afraid I'll be scared when I'm pregnant. Hearing you talk about it though makes me feel like everything will be ok and will be so much more than worth it!

Nicole Marie said...

this is just so sweet... you are the best most loving mommy ever

Natalie said...

Happy Birthday to your baby boy! This post is so sweet. :) I loved the part where you said heaven touched the earth when your boy was born. What a great way to describe it!

Shalyn said...

"I've never been more okay"- that gave me chills! So sweet! I can't believe he is already a year old- HAPPY BIRTHDAY SWEET BABY B!

Ashley said...

This is the most beautiful, honest, and touching post. Thank you for sharing your special feelings about the most wonderful moment in a mother's life. (and I totally cried, reading this.) Life is GOOD.

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